Do you ever not want to be you?

Sometimes I just want to stop being me! I have always been the responsible person. I have never done anything reckless or totally selfish or rebelious. And no I feel guilty because I want to! I dont want to be responsible and do what I should and what everyone expects. I dont want to do anything stupid or bad but maybe a little reckless. I dont want to go back to school. I have no desire to. And I feel...I dont know. I dont want to do what is expected of me anymore. I just want to be lazy and work and get paid poorly but be able to survive. Not having any real worries or responsibilities is so nice. Why do I want to go back to school with hard classes and grades and money? Why do I want to go back to cold rexburg winter? Why should I? Why cant I just stop being responsible? Why cant I do what is EASY?